Monday, July 26, 2010

quiet, soul



i tell him how the squirrels sound like him when he's hiccuping and he stares at my cheekbones and i feel the stillness of being known

his socks don't match his pajamas and he doesn't mind as he swings high

i think he looks like me

and i wonder how to be God to him

and does he see prayer in my smile?

and he laughs at the way the wind moves my hair and i remember what it is to be a child

...

a cow moos

...

and this is it.

this walking in light when the world is dark and this being something others want to follow

wondering, still

how to walk and be (motionless)
how to rest yet fill potential
how to have ambition yet be (content)

and my little boy holds out his hands to catch the rush of night air swinging low sweet chariot and his smiles breaks so many molds and all i know is

quiet, soul...

God is with us

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25 comments:

Weezer said...

Absolutely gorgeous! And that is the most adorable little face ever!

Melissa | Madabella: made beautiful said...

Beautifully spoken... I never knew how to be moved so deeply toward Christ-likeness until I had my children...so precious is your gift from the Most High...

Terresa said...

"i feel the stillness of being known"
-- beautiful you. That is life, the key of it, right there.

scraps of starlight said...

" Does he see a prayer in my smile?"
You touch my heart over and over and over again Emily.
I see prayer.

Wandering On Purpose said...

how to have ambition yet be (content)
my heart echoes this prayer

linda said...

This is beautiful beyond description.

Southern Gal said...

It's lovely, Emily.

Ryan and Melanie said...

so beautiful em. your words bless me. thanks for your encouragement on my blog as well.

Leslie said...

"how to walk and be (motionless)
how to rest yet fill potential
how to have ambition yet be (content)"

I see this in my own daughter (my own Emily), who is also a writer. And I pray for her. I pray that she will have light for her path. That she will be His vessel. That she will know she is loved. That she will rest in His hands.

And for both Emilys, grace.

Jodi said...

Gorgeous! How awesome it is to love and serve a God who gives us peace and contentment, yet wired us to dream big.

JoAnn said...

I love the squirrels and the hiccups. Fun and beautiful and reverent.

Tessa said...

"how to walk and be (motionless)
how to rest yet fill potential
how to have ambition yet be (content)"

I've been looking for this in dance and in life.

Duane Scott said...

Best piece you've written. And I've been watching you from the shadows from a long time. :)

S. Etole said...

children are such gentle reminders of "being" ...

GlowinGirl said...

how to rest and yet fill potential

Will I ever know this?

Claudia said...

Your posts always let me breathe - and touch my soul - go glad you share your heart with us
...the stillness of being known...love, love, love

Traci Michele said...

I can not even tell you HOW YOUR WORDS (God-breathed) always refresh and captivate my soul!

Can you write up a little post about what we talked about... I'd love to feature you soon!

Love you,
Traci

Linda said...

I wonder if it takes a lifetime to learn all those things perfectly Em. I find I am still learning, failing and learning some more.
You are doing such a good job. Be gentle with yourself.

deb said...

This was truly a day when I had to read and reread.

your way lights mine

Juliana @ Shakti Mama said...

Emily, this is absolutely STUNNING. So tender, so lovely, so wise. The first line -- "i tell him how the squirrels sound like him when he's hiccuping and he stares at my cheekbones and i feel the stillness of being known" -- so powerful and soulful.

Your son is so lucky to have such a lovely mother.

Studio JRU said...

Beautiful Emily. I'm sure he sees prayer in your smile... and so much more. :)

~Jennifer

Heather at A "Love"ly Mess said...

I'm a new reader, I'm hooked. Lovely words.

Simply-Mel said...

Your post moved me to my core. It takes a lot to do that to me these days. Thank you.

patty said...

i had to catch my breath. such beautiful words, emily, really. he's lucky to have such a tender mama. :)

Craig and Bethany said...

All boy-ness and child. And being known. It seems our children have mastered this art of knowing. If only I could be perfection-deaf more moments of the day and slip into just knowing and being.