so we live here, but also, there, straddling earth and heaven, and dr. cicely saunders calls it "the hour of love." the eternal hour in which we skin our knees in prayer and fumble with forgiveness. all the while struggling to believe that we ourselves are loved.
and then things happen. good things.
like your husband cupping your face as though you're a flower. your son, holding your hand the whole way home from the grocery store. your aunt, calling you and telling you she wants to take the boys--the ones arriving on february 10th--every monday, all day long.
there's the smell of a supper you didn't have to make, the bouquet he gives you at the end of a day that seems to never end, and the package in the mail--the unexpected one, the one that makes you clap your hands in the careless happiness of a child.
and these moments straddle time and space, these sweet nectar moments that remind you there is a God, and God is good.
you find the strength to be the kind of person that fights each day for love, so that hatred cannot win. so that fear is forced to die, and no matter the hour, no matter the trial, you learn a peace that transcends.
knowing that you exist for more.
man is like a breath; his days are like a fleeting shadow. psalm 144:4
i cannot fully express how your notes on my last post have held us up as a family over the past few days... sometimes i just go back and read them, to remind myself of why we need to do this. i wish i could hug each one of you. please forgive my slow visiting of your blogs... we have been filling out countless forms for this process, but know we are so, so grateful for your prayers and your love. xoxo
**please note, due to getting these two boys, and Emily receiving a contract for a book due May 1, this will be the SECOND LAST 'imperfect prose on thursdays' meme until further notice. next week will be the final gathering (i do hope to resume at some point down the road... this community has become so dear to me.)**

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58 comments:
Just beautiful, Emily. It's wonderful how God reminds us through the simple how great He truly is. God bless you in the coming days, weeks, and months. It will be hard, but God is good! I had 3 babies under age 2, so I know what a trial it can be. But, God gives us grace for each day, one day at a time. God bless you, and thank you so much for the inspiration you are!
Emily ... I read this post, and then read the one below. And I'm joining the prayer chorus. May God grant you everything you stand in need of. And I thank Him for giving these sweet gifts to you. And I thank Him for giving you to the world.
You can't imagine the honor I feel to be able to pray for you...you, doing the brave thing, the sacrificial thing...all because of love.
May your own words lift you up when you need Him the most:
"you find the strength to be the kind of person that fights each day for love, so that hatred cannot win. so that fear is forced to die, and no matter the hour, no matter the trial, you learn a peace that transcends."
Your story changes others' stories. God blesses through you, Emily. Cling tightly.
love. He asks us to fight for love here in this space and He equips us by loving us best, in the most personal of ways.
This spoke to me softly at first. Then grew loud. Thank you. I needed these words.
Praying you are showered with those "sweet nectar moments that remind you there is a God, and God is good." today.
For Him,
Nikki
Emily, I am praying. I know the feeling. I have been there before. The days ARE too long, but in the morning comes the sun. Blessings, friend.
I lived these sweet moments between earth and heaven with you, thank you for sharing them... keep fighting, keep believing... what a gift and testimony you are. Love to you.
Your beauty is growing right before our very eyes Em! Those little boys are falling into such loving arms!
i was about to quote back all the parts that spoke truth and mercy deep into the needy parts of me, but then i was pretty much pasting your whole post in here.
bless you, em.
Yes, love. Love is the thing that drives out fear, that makes it release its hold. Have Feb. 10 marked on the calendar. Prayers and love.
love me some of these sweet nectar moments..smiles...he's awesome, isn't he..
This ---> you find the strength to be the kind of person that fights each day for love, so that hatred cannot win. so that fear is forced to die, and no matter the hour, no matter the trial, you learn a peace that transcends.
chills, my luv.
I really needed your words today, Emily. I want to be the kind of person who fights each day for love. I feel like a flattened warrior today, though. Thanks for the gentle nudge to reach out for Him.
Dearest Emily,
All of this pain is about Glory. You are allowing Him to expand your capacity to love and serve, and the cost you bear is a drink offering poured out onto the altar of your life, allowing Him to do with you as He will. He is Sufficient for all that He calls us to. His Provision will be perfect. The fruit He bears through you will ripple out into eternity. And that's the greatest thing of all--your sacrifice now will bear fruit going forward that you will never see this side of Home. I think about how He called us to bring two little boys from Russia into our lives, our family, and stand in awe of what He has done through our stumbling, bumbling attempt to obey. It is more than we could have imagined. That doesn't lessen the price paid, but it does put it in perspective. And that's the goal, after all, to have His Perspective become the eyes through which we see all of our days here.
way to go hubble ont eh never ending bouquet...and these moments are pricelss..a.nd your life is meant for more...still praying em...live. love. life..
sweet emily, you write so raw and real. great grace and deep shalom peace to you, even--especially!--in those fighting to stay afloat moments.
Oh Emily, {dear one} your words always bring me down to now, in longing, in humility, in desire to be more alive, more like LOVE.
You are doing an incredible thing with your husband and boys, those 2 new boys {wow, but they are blessed to join you 4} and their mama {oh, my heart aches for her, that she needs to walk away, I understand in part and hurt with her in full}.
Imperfect prose is such a beautiful patchwork of love and giving and creating, it calls me back again and again.
Thankful for you, Janae
Your family is a little beacon of light Emily :)
Sending love and hugs to you all.
xx
"you find the strength to be the kind of person that fights each day for love"
This is you my friend. When I think of you, read your words, see you photo's, I am reminded of love. I'm still on a faith journey to truly see God as good. You are one that helps make this journey a bit easier.
ah, beautiful you. it is such a joy seeing you work out your salvation. seeing the Lord manifest Himself thru you and yours. true beauty is this: that you have laid your life down for His sake. what a privilege it is to be a witness.
amen.
prayers continuing for you in all that lies ahead and knowing that God has such amazing struggle and joy and pleasure and blessing all tangled and woven. . . just for you.
love,
steph
In all these little moments, I see God showing up for you just to remind you how deeply he loves you.
I know how important and comforting it is to lean into trusting God. I know his mercies are abundant and his blessings innumerable. We need to trust his love and lean into him. He is faithful and true. Thanks for this. I'm working on trusting more.
oh i love the line, "knowing you exist for more." I'm so glad there is more to the story, and I'm grateful for the glimpses in this life. Love you!
I haven't come by in oh so long, but felt the draw this week...ah, doubling the size of the family, and in this way...so much love to be poured out through you, so much love He has to pour into you to equip you...and you said "yes"...and already God building in your day to be alone with Him (if that is how He leads) ... He is so good!
Cupping your face like a flower. Oh, Emily. You are a flower. And I know He is cupping your heart. You have grabbed mine. I want to reach higher because of you. xoxo
your poetry in word and image touch my own moments of time and space ...find myself wishing i could take them each friday ..a bit far away tho' close in my heart!!
love this oasis of wisdom
Wonderful reminder of those small things that mean so very much... Wonderful!
You know, Emily, I don't look at this as a sacrificial thing, a giving up thing - though I am sure there are things you will give up, what you will gain will far outweigh that loss - I look at it as something amazing, awesome and wonderful that will bless your life more than you could ever imagine - me, in this boys' home - we call it, filled to the brim with all kinds of boys - coachable boys, learn-through-experience boys, each boy grieving differently, showing love differently, fighting for their place differently - a housefull builds a heart fuller than you ever imagined. I guess it would be easier to grow into a mom of more through separate nine-month waiting, anticipation, dreaming, praying - instead of one week having a few and the next having many - but God is granting you the mothering opportunity of a lifetime. And, how wonderful, your aunt, to pull them into her heart family, too! I'm just plain excited for you!
So that hatred cannot win...I am humbled by your courage to love. God is so good and I will continue to pray His goodness for you and all of those boys in your life!
It is so wonderful how God puts people in our lives to help us as we live out our calling. What a confirmation of the faithfulness of God! May God richly bless you on your brave undertaking. I am so blessed by what you have written.
God IS good! Bless you flowerface.xx
Will keep praying for you and your family...so glad to hear how God is providing for you in such practical and beautiful ways...much love.
praying this new transition for your family is a smooth one. can't wait to see what God is going to do in the lives of these little ones coming into your home! (and the recent book contract - congrats - saw it on FB - so happy for you!)
That is what God has been speaking to me today - that He IS good. That He is so good and loving. Praying for you in all that is going on and will continue to go on in your home in the coming days.
i'm sad that you'll be busy but happy that you'll have your hands full of wonderful soul stretching work. I'll miss you friend. I've been praying for you, even though i didn't comment (i was sick when you posted last).
Love you.
J
I haven't linked up in awhile, but I have continued to quietly follow. I adore your heart (and cutting your dreads just reinforced that :)
Bless you as you embrace the newness that this season is bringing you. I know God will continue to fill you with Spirit and words to reach others for Him. Shine on. xo.
Oh, Em!! A contract - yes! New boys to love - yes! Lots of fear and trepidation - YES! Love you, am grateful for you, praying for you. This one is just remarkable. Just.Remarkable.
Yes, there is God, and He is Good, and I'm so delighted to know that you have *felt* that goodness in these recent hours and days. It is one thing to know it, another to be washed over with it. Rejoicing with you, my friend!
a contract!! Fantastic! Get busy, girl!
Is it your birthday?
Sounds like it to me.
I need to learn to just be awash in the love that I have been so gracefully given.
great post...
The little one is growing so fast...
yes...the little things that make love visible. The eyes that left us in the fall and turned dim, when Christ comes and turns the light back on in life..finally we see ...that truely GOD IS GOOD!
Love in the unexpected places from loving God. Praying big prayers for you and your family, Emily.
Emily, consider this the "no need to reply" of blog visiting. ;) Skip Little Pieces of Ordinary in this link up and spend a little more time just relaxing, breathing, and enjoying your family. God knows your plate is full.
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Praise God that He shows His love for us in so many unexpected ways! Love and blessings to you, dear one.
I started not to link up but I want to be part of this "place" before it takes a breather! Emily, your life shouts to the glory of God, his faithfulness, his provision, his deep love for you that spills out in your words and your art----from your beautiful heart that he has uniquely shaped in His world. I know he has already made provision for every challenge that is coming and provided a place for all the blessings to fill as your life and love expands in new ways. Blessings, sweet Emily.
Hi! Please email me, I have a question for you! :)
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this. is. beautiful, emily.
has me in tears. i can't pick one part--it all spoke to me. thank you. you are special, dear one. i also read the one in which you begged us to pray...what a raw, vulnerable post. it had me captivated. i am praying for all of you--wanted you to know that.
and by the way, i did leave a reply for you at my blog. dont know if you read those.
blessings,
Nacole
Looking past hurts and wrongs and running after a forgiving spirit and love is exactly what I've been living through these past few days. It isn't always easy, but I keep on forcing myself to pray and to see those blessings the One has so graciously given to me.
Thank you, Emily, for always reminding me to look heavenward and to search this world I"m living in daily for every possibly blessing . Your words bless me and build me up more than you know.
Wow, Emily. I will be praying for you, but I know already that you are going to be a blessing to those boys. That you already are a blessing to them. There is always so much mystery in God's plan. I pray that you have the strength to just trust and see it through.
Also, congratulations on the book contract. So very proud of you!!
Holding you all in my heart.
Rejoicing in that painting!
Amazing and beautiful (the prose, the life, the good news). Congratulations on the new sons and the book contract! May God outdo Himself in the joy He gives. Grace, peace, and joy to you in Jesus.
So beautiful. Offering up a prayer for ease for you.
Emily, this shows me the tender, beautiful ways love strengthens these hearts of ours, so we have something to keep on giving. The ways His love shows up, breathtaking. Thank you and bless you!
So happy to hear of your book contract!!! (and all the other blessings, equally as important)
Someone once told me that we see God best when we're forced to look up.
I think it's true.
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